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[28 Aug 2004|05:12am] |
its 5:15 and im not tired at all.
too many things on my mind right now.
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ahh i havent updated in soo long. i just get so lazy man.
last night kenny and ryan picked me up at around 11:45, we went to some quince in glendale. the bar tender was so fucking cool man,his name was frank, i started talking to him a lot cause i was drunk, he gave us so many drinks,he also gave us this big ass bottle of smirnoff vodka. i've never been that drunk before. haha it was so much fun, sometimes i like drinking more than smoking, but when i get high i change my mind. haha. we arrived at kennys house around 2, ryan and i were so drunk, but we were still drinking. we put so much alcohol in that big bottle. there was bacardi, whiskey, beer, and vodka in that thing. haha it was pretty gross but i was thirsty.lol. umm yeah ryan and i fell asleep on the floor. it was a really fun night.
i dont remember whats been going on lately, i hadnt smoked in a week, but yesterday i smoked with my sisters, it was fucking chill man. haha yeah it was cool. i went to hollywood on thursday or friday or something and i bought a new pipe, im going to sell my other pipe to my sister cause she is leaving to santa cruz soon. ummm my birthday is coming up, and parents are going out of town in 2 weeks so i think im going to have a party. lots of booze and bud muthaphuckas!!
i dont really eat or sleep anymore. i dont have an appetite, and when i eat, it's ice cream. i look like shit cause i never sleep. ah oh well. school is going to start soon, i'm really not excited about that, i dont really know what to expect this year, last year was so...i cant think of a word cause i dont really know what it was. it was just different i guess, too many drugs and uhmm...too many assholes.
i have a new screen name, partAyAnimalias , i cant get on my old one, im really pissed off about that too because i only have like 20 buddies or so on my new buddy list. haha oh well its cool to start off fresh sometimes.
haha fuck the po po
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i haven't updated in a long time, too fucking lazy. yeah umm
i guess i'll just talk about my fun friday and saturday afternoon. justine, chris, carlos, rene, derenik and i were supposed to go to a party off division, but things didn't work out, so we all just got dropped off in glendale for another party, haha but that didn't work out either. so we just walked to mcdonalds and hung out, then we walked to dereniks house, by that time it was already 12 at night, so from there we got picked up by rene's mom, and she took us to rene's house.
we hung out there, went to the park, watched movies, ate cereal and top ramen,played pool, oh yeah and ate lots of bubblicious gum. rene and i watched unfaithful in the tv room while everyone else was in the sleeping living room.
he and i stayed up until 6 in the mornin!!!!! we both kicked carlos off the little bed and him and i slept on it. then everyone woke up around 9 and we ate breakfast and hung outtttttt. we stayed there until....6 on saturday then we got picked up and everyone came down.
yeah then i came home, my dad saw my hickie and started yelling at me. my mom just wanted to make sure it wasn't from some random guy at the party she thought i went to. then i went to urban outfitters in old town and i bought a puma sweater, i love puma. ummm on sunday i went to the beach with the fam, and i fucking got burned by the sun!!! ugh i hate that. i wish i could go to the beach and in the water with pajamas or something.
then last night a couple friends picked me up, we hotboxed, i came home high and my mom flipped out for the first time ever. she knows that i smoked, but she's been telling me that she thinks i'm back on crystal or something, but i'm not, so it's weird that she thinks that. she told me she was going to set up an appointment so i can get drug tested, but today when i came home, i just didn't go.
whateva. i kind of feel bad though, i mean life is good right now because i have rene, but i guess i'm putting my parents through shit? my dad was telling me that he cant concentrate or even go to work cause he's so worried about me. i don't know why, exactly, but i still feel bad. so i'm not going to smoke like before.
ummmmm justine comes over everyday because she treasures our friendship, and she is obsessed with my sense of humor. umm i have an A in my second period, and a C in my first period. i better get some money when the grades are final!!!!!!!!!
i am punishing myself this weekend, i'm not going to ask my parents to go out because they'll give me a dirty look or yell at me or something and i just don't want to hear it. i'll just stay home and read.
oh yeah,
and if anyone has read, the catcher in the rye, to kill a mockingbird, or the lord of the flies, please tell me about them. i really am not up for reading those books.
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i hate paranoia!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhh annnnnnnnnagggggga jaaaaaaaaaasjj
i hate being high and having something to worry about
i bought a pipe yesterday, i really like it, it's clear, i like when i can see the smoke through the pipe.
yeah
i got food poisening yesterday, i'm still recovering
i really don't want to go to school tomorrow i don't like the summer that much, tooooooooooooo hot, plus, like a couple days ago i was remembering everything bad that happened to me during the year, and i don't want to have another year like that and go through all the shit. who cares if there were good parts, everything bad kills the good.
i went to la crescenta on friday and i bought some herb, it was sooooooooooo trippy,yeah, i like it. my friend started crying, it was crazy and irritating. so yeah we woke up in the morning, waked n' baked, then i came home and smoked some more with my sister. um yeah, it's soooooooooo convenient having my own pipe.
my dad took my pipe, so when i was smoking with myself, i would use an apple.
i love being high when i have nothing to worry about.
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well, i'm here in el salvador for two nights.
i'm supposed to be in guatemala where the rest of my clothing is, but my mother insists on meeting the rest of the family that we've never seen or heard of.
alright, um i've been cutting back on the herb, good thing, i have an unopened bottle of tequilla in my room, i'm saving that for good times in la crescenta, yup.
armen has left to lebanon, he will come back ine 3 months, that sucks so much. what is the point of going to la crescneta now? just kidding. i love you arda. uhmm......my sister is in ohio right now, god i would not want to be there, i don't know what else to say, i don't even know what time it is right now for christ' sake.
i'm just anxious for this week to pass. i'm getting new shoes and a new cell phone when i get back to l.a. pumas, as always, and i don't care about my cell phone, just as long as it has text messaging.
ehhh summer school starts soon, i don't even know what classes i'm taking, i really need to "improve my work habbits" i don't study or do my homework, and even though i don't care THAT much, my mother does, and i would like to make her happy, so i really am going to try to do well this year.
alright i'm done, late
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1. name: Sofie Tavitian
2. single or taken: Single
3. sex: Female
4. birthday: September 19th
6. siblings: two older sisters
7. hair color: ehh light brown and dark brown
8. eye color: brown
9. shoe size: 8.5
10. height: 5'4"
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends? Shiva, Elizabeth, Marina, Alex, arda
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
f a s h i o n s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop: American Eagle, macy’s, Beyond the Beach
2. any tattoos or piercings: yeah, piercings
s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs? Ummm yeah….
2. what kind of shampoo do you use? Biolage
3. what are you most scared of? Spiders
4. who is the last person that called you? Alex
5. Where do you want to get married? Hawaii, or Greece
6. what would you change about yourself? My attitude
f a v o r i t e s
1. color: Black, dark purple, green, turquoise
2. food: Pete’s chili fries, salads
4. girls names: uhhh….crystal
5. subjects in school: period 6, no class, weight room with baseball players
6. animals: puppies, horses.
7. sports: basketball, softball
h a v e y o u e v e r
1. given anyone a bath? nope
2. smoked? yup
3. bungee jumped?: nope
4. made yourself throw up?: yup
5. skinny dipped?: yup
6: ever been in love?: nope
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? Yeah, but it never works
9. actually seen your crush naked? Kind of
10. cried when someone died? Yeah
11. lied: of course, god
12. fallen for your best friend?: yup
13. been rejected?: DUH when am I not?
14. rejected someone? yes.
16. done something you regret? yes
c u r r e n t
clothes: green basketball shorts, black wife beater lol
music: modest mouse-paper thin walls.
make-up: none
annoyance: uhh…people that write on their backpacks
in cd player: marilyn manson
in dvd player: Requiem for a dream
l a s t p e r s o n
you touched: um I don’t remember
hugged: I don’t remember that one either
you im'ed: Troy
you yelled at: Seth
you kissed: ugh Rod
a r e y o u
understanding: yup
open-minded: yes, very
arrogant: nope
insecure: yes, it’s horrible
interesting: ehh…I dunno, probably not, I’m a boring person.
random: yeah
hungry: unfortunately
smart: er than some people
mood: bored
organized: too organized
shy: depends on if you’re good looking or not.
difficult: sometimes
attractive: nope..
messy: nope.
r a n d o m
In the morning i: go pee right after I wake up
love is: irritating
i dream about: being invisible, and being able to fly.
o p p o s i t e/s a m e s e x
what do you notice first: eyes, teeth, face
last person you slow danced with: uhh Virgil
worst question to ask: I don’t know and I don’t care
who makes you laugh the most: Marina, Troy and Shiva
who makes you smile?: Alex
d o y o u e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you? Yes, all the time
wish you were a member of the opposite sex? Um, no
wish you were younger: no, I wish I was older.
cry because someone said something about you?: not really.
n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: um 3 times?
of hearts i have broken: none
of guys i've kissed: I don’t remember 6 or 7?
of girls i've kissed: 0
of continents i have lived in: 1
of chill friends: 5
of cds i own: I don’t know, that’s an irritating question.
of scars on my body: too many. They’re irritating
f i n a l q u e s t i o n s
1. do you like filling these out? Yes when I’m bored.
2. gold or silver: Silver
3. what was the last film you saw at the movies: 13 going on 30
4. favorite cartoon/anime? I hate cartoons
5. what did you have for breakfast this morning? Umm…I don’t eat breakfast
6. who would you love being locked in a room with?: carlos
7. could you live without your computer?: nope
8. would you color your hair? Ehh no
9. could you ever get off the computer: when I’m at home, no, unless there is a good movie on
10. habla espanol: I understand it
11. how many people are on your buddy list?: 145 i only talk to like 7
12. drink alcohol?: not really.
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yyaya i'm going to a pinback concert tonight!!!!!!
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-- Name: Sofie
-- Middle name: Elizabeth
-- Birth date: September 19
-- Birthplace: California
-- Current Location: Eagle rock
-- Eye Color: Brown
-- Hair Color: BRown
-- Height: 5"4
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Virgo
LAYER TWO
-- The shoes you wore today: pumas
-- Your weakness: guys
-- Your fears: being lonely for the rest of my life
-- Your perfect pizza: pepperoni
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: weighing 105 pounds.
-- Your most overused phrase on IM: lol
-- Your thoughts first waking up:great, I have to go to school
-- Your best physical feature: people say it’s my hair
-- Your most missed memory: Cancun
LAYER FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: Adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: mint sworkachino
LAYER FIVE
-- Smoke: smoke weed everyday
-- Cuss: yes…rarely
-- Sing: uhm…yes…usually by myself.
-- Do you think you've been in love: um I don’t know
-- Want to go to college: yes
-- Like(d) high school:not really.
-- Want to get married: yes
-- Believe in yourself: no
-- Get motion sickness: no
-- Think you're attractive: nope
-- Think you're a health freak: no
-- Get along with your parent(s): sometimes
LAYER SIX
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: yes
-- Done a drug: no
-- Made Out: yes
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall?: yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos?:never
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been dumped: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen anything: no
LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
-- If so, was it mixed company: yes
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: um yes
-- Been caught "doing something": lol yes
-- Been called a tease: no
-- Gotten beaten up: kind of
-- Shoplifted: no
-- Changed who you were to fit in: kind of
LAYER EIGHT
-- Age you hope to be married: mid 20’s
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 3 or 4 doyle, Elizabeth, alex, mike, billy, jimmy, Nathan, marina, richard
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: a beach in hawaii
-- Where you want to go to college: UCSC
In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color? Green or hazel
-- Best hair color? Brown and black
-- Short or long hair: long
-- Height: tall guys and medium girls
-- Best weight: 105 for girls and 145 for guys
-- Best articles of clothing: underwear
-- Best first date location: the beach
-- Best first kiss location: the beach, or movie theatre
LAYER TEN
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 2 or 3
-- Number of CDs that you own: uhm….40?
-- Number of piercings: 7
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: three
-- Number of scars on my body: more than I can count
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so i just deleted all of my old stupid entries. it took like an hour, good thing i have fast internet. so i have a fresh new livejournal. uhm i am a bit high right now, so...bare with me. um.... shit i forgot. ok so on friday i got high at school during nutrition, and i was fucking out of it during 3rd. i don't think my teacher noticed because i wasn't making noise, i was just "acting like a retard" according to samantha.i was really paranoid the whole day at schol because they could have randomly gone into any one of my six classes and done a drug search thing. that has happened to me once, so it could have happened again. good thing it didn't happen. on friday i was really hoping that michael would buy me balloons, he forgot to make an order so we were walking to horticulture and i see kevin, he ends up giving me a red carnation!!! that was very nice of him. it broke like 2 classes after but oh well. anyway, anjelika is in sacramento, but she is coming back on monday so we'll hang out with ramon and cody. we'll probably go and smoke. ramon and cody want to quit, but i don't think they're going to be able to. i might be wrong, who knows?
so...has anyone asked themselves why sofie tavitian from eagle rock is home on a saturday night??? well too bad if you haven't, you are probably wondering now. i ditched my first period on thursday so my teacher called my mom and told her that i was absent, i got punished from the computer and we got into this huge argument so i walked out and just went for a walk, then came back and start kicking doors, so they punished me from going out. it really sucked because ramon cody and i had plans to go a party in the valley. they ended up going to Ethans' party without me. they came to help me escape but then they talked me out of leaving because i told them what my mom was going to do. so now you should know not to every ditch any classes. ok anyway.omg!!! i forgot....so i went to watch the varsity girls game at the boys' gym...(does't that seem weird, girls playing at the boys gym?) ok well i was standing in the parking lot waiting for...anybody, and Mark Arroyo offered to give me a ride home. he is not only really good looking but very nice. so that is really cool! well,i think i've written enough, and my cd is already on the last song. (i started on the third song) so thats 11 songs.
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